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Saturday, September 9th, 2006
3:07 pm	A Letter to Myself From Senior Year of High School Right now I'm reorganizing my files, and I came across a letter that my Anatomy teacher from Senior year of high school had us write to ourselves, so he could mail them to us a year later. Well, he did, and now it's pretty neat reading the letter, 5 years later...here it is: 6/10/02 Dear Ashley, I am writing this letter to you from Anatomy in the morning of the last day of school. The rest of the week is just senior activities. That's weird to me - "senior activities." I can't believe it's all over, that was so fast. So...I don't really konw what to say. I hope that you don't forget all of the fun times you've had in high school. All of the sports you've played and all of the people on your teams. Hanging out with all of your friends - especially marisa. All of the parties we went to...Our Town, Cassidy Blounts, Katie Hinkles (on your 18th bday), the Delta, the narrows, Leti's party - there's so much I hope I don't forget. The picture Marisa gave me has a lot of words on it that should help me remeber high school. I still can't believe my high school is over. I'm growing up and that's cool, weird, and kinda scary to me. I don't know what life is going to be like for me. I have lots of hopes for my future - as everyone should. I hope that this summer goes well for me and that maybe my parents will be a little more lenient. I hope that I get a good roommate at college, I hope I like the food, I hope it's not too much of a financial burden for mom and dad, I hope I don't get myself into trouble - especially considering alcohol, I hope I don't get into drugs, I hope I find someone to fall in love with, I hope I get good grades, I hope that I still have some of my same high school friends left by the time I read this, I hope that I will have learned a lot by now about life, I hope that I kinda know what I want to do with my life, I hope that my family is still safe, I hope my brothers and Michelle are doing well, and Mom and Dad also, I hope I have tons of good memories, and a good college experiene, I hope that I miss high school, but am glad to be in college, and most of all, I hope that I am as happy with life as I am now. I have so much to be thankful for, everyone has done so much for me, and I know that I would not have been succesful without all of them. I hope that I am grateful for everything I have, and I hope that I still have everything I ned. I hope I don't get too fat in college, and that I still enjoy exercising and sports. There's s much I can hope for, but really all I can do is just take it one day at a time and hopefully everything will work out alright. Right now in my life, everything is great. Marisa and I are still best friends - we're having a huge barbecue for the two of us. I'm really glad I found that good of a friend to help me through high school, she's something else I am very thankful for. I am working in Paso, and things are fine - a little drama, but thats normal - I hope the people I work with this summer are fun. Right now I am together with Robert, and I really like him, we have a lot of fun together. I do have some insecurities about us, and mostly myself. Last night we had a tiff about how I think that maybe his type really is the Karly type - high maintenance, makeup, nice clothes - all that stuff, and that maybe I am just the rebound girl. But, it's probably just me being stupid and insecure - maybe because of all of the crap I've gotten from my previous boys. He's a really good guy, and I hope that there's a good future for us. As long as I don't regret anything, I've had a good time with him, and we've had a good relationship, then thats all I ask. Everything happens for a reason, and I know that whatever happens with us will be for a reason. And, whatever happens with us, I hope I learn something from it. I am a lucky person, and he's part of the reason for that right now. I really don't know what else to write right now. High school has been awesome - I couldn't have asked for anything ese. You're a lucky girl, Ashley, and you should know that life is good and youv'e been very fortunate. I hope I've stayed safe and healthy in college. I'm gonna miss high school, but it's time to move on. Love, Ashley P.S. "I always though I'd look back on us crying and laugh, but I never knew I would look back on us laughing, and cry." Current Mood: nostalgic Current Music: Dixie Chicks (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 28th, 2006
8:40 pm	drivin! Yesterday Christie and I took turns driving her car, effing FAST, and it was FUN! We got dinner and then went for a cruise, and by cruise, I mean, we both hit at least a hundo on the freeway, top down music up (primarily gangsta rap and metallica). It was really fun! We ended up at a sweet dive bar on Hwy 84 (I think) and listened to juke box music, got offered shots of Patron, and kicked it with the bartender. Beemers are pretty rad for driving fast, totally stoked for HPDE...even though I won't be in a beemer for that haha. Current Mood: chipper (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 19th, 2006
9:59 pm	Aqua Last night Christie took me out for my belated birthday dinner out in the city...wow good times... We started by checking into the W, which is beautiful (although not as nice as the Barcelona hotel, which to this day remains the nicest ass hotel room I've ever had in my life). Then we went downstairs, got a kamakazee shot, and then headed to Aqua. We drank another kamakazee (in a martini glass) while waiting for out table, and then sat down next to a really pleasant looking older couple. We decided to get the tasting menu, along with the wine tasting menu (an additional $75). So, that included like 6 glasses of different wines...dinner was fantastic, and the wine was ridiculous also... Needless to say we got pretty hammered, and ended up chatting with the couple sitting next to us. Then Todd, Mark and Tyler showed up from Jeepers Jamboree. They knew we weren't done eating but figured they'd sit at the bar until we were done eating. But since we were pretty drunk, I went over and said hi, and then it turned into them coming back to sit with us and the awesome old couple that we had met, and them buying everyone another round of drinks. Then, the bill came while we were both off in the bathroom or something, and when we came back, the bill was "taken care of"...holy shit... Then we went out with the boys, and I will write a private post on that. Then, today, I was pretty damn hungover, but finally it passed, and we ended up going to the mall....and both of us spent so much goddamn money, I've never spent that much money in one day at the mall in my life. Almost $600 bucks on shit that I've just been needing, for a long time. And now, I'm sleepy :) Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: Metallica - Nothing Else Matters (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
11:18 pm	Work tidbits This week has kinda been nuts at work. It all started on Monday when we hired a new sales guy that will be remote on the East Coast. He was here for 4 days, so we had a welcome dinner for him Monday night..I've never drank so much ridiculously expensive wine in my life, and the overall tab was probably worth almost as much as my car. Then, Tuesday night, some of the other sales guys that couldn't make it wanted to get drinks with him, not realizing that half the sales team had already had dinner with him the night before. I rallied and went again for drinks after work, which turned into dinner and more expensive wine. Last night I switched over my cell phone plan to my own name finally (meaning I will now pay the bill) and got myself a super pretty light pink razr. Its freaken sweet. And then, I actually just came home and did a shit load of laundry and what not and tried to catch up with my life after how crazy things have been for like a week now. And today, we had a meeting with our boss, who informed us that we would be getting blackberries. I was like "shoot, good timing!' haha. But it turns out I have 15 days to renig on my plan and cell phone and cancel all of it. I"m hesitant about having to deal with a big ass freaken blackberry all the time - especially b/c when I go out I totally wanna just throw my phone and an ID and cash in my pocket and be good to roll. But, the company is gonna be paying for as many minutes as I want, and most people just use their blackberry now as their phone, and recommend that I do so also. Everyone says that it's just too difficult to try to deal with juggling the two phones all the time and having two phone numbers etc. So, sadly, I probably will give up my old school phone number and cute little phone and give in to the crackberry madness. And then, today, we also were informed that we'd be ramping up on some responsibility, which is pretty sweet. We will be having a bit more direct client contact and whatnot. And then, we ended up with this ridiculous project. It's basically comparing sales numbers from the prior week to this week. But, it's incredibily in depth in Excel - which I'm just "ok" at to begin with. It deals with pivot tables, if anyone even knows what those damn things are, and of course, it deals with trying to make the numbers match when all is said and done...and if they don't go back through that fucker and figure out what went wrong. So, we started working on that at like 1 pm today, and I didn't get home til just now - 10:45 pm, and we're not even CLOSE to being done. It sucks b/c most of the time we have been working on it hasn't been productive at all. We dont' know what we're doing so most of what we're doing is "doing things wrong, deleting them and trying again" which, if you ask anyone, it blows. But, all in all, work is good. And Christie and I are going to a nice ass dinner tomorrow night (nice dinner #3 for me for the week :) and staying at the W in San Fran and going out on the town! Hopefully I'm not too sleepy! Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 8th, 2006
9:54 am	Dang I need to post, bad. And my stomach hurts, bad. Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Monday, June 12th, 2006
4:44 pm	goodbyes "...So hard to see myself without him, I felt a piece of my heart break, But when you're standing at a crossroad, There's a choice you gotta make. I guess it's gonna have to hurt, I guess I'm gonna have to cry, And let go of some things I've loved, To get to the other side, I guess it's gonna break me down, Like falling when you try to fly, It's sad, but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life, Starts with goodbye. I know there's a blue horizon, Somewhere up ahead, just waiting for me, Getting there means leaving things behind, Sometimes life's so bitter sweet." -Carrie Underwood, Starts with Goodbye (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 23rd, 2006
7:31 pm	love, the other kind Well today has literally probably been the worst day of my life. I have done nothing but cry, I am absolutely devastated. And I've been talking to Marisa on and off today, she's been really supportive and I love her to death. And since she can't be with me right now, she had her mom come bring me a card and flowers. I love her too. I love that whole family like it's my family, they all mean so much to me. And then Caralee started crying by the end of the visit too because poor Jake is in the hospital after having his appendix out, he is throwing up and has been for like 5 days. So Jake and Wade have both spent extensive amounts of time in the hospital and Caralee has been there by their side through all of it. And she has not had it easy with the guys either. So when she left, she started crying and then gave me a hug, and she was like "I love you guys, and you know, being a mom, we hurt when you guys hurt" and she kept crying and said goodbye. I really appreciate having people so close to me, I feel like my life sucks so much right now, but it does feel really good to know that I have so many people that do care for me alot in my life. Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Monday, May 15th, 2006
11:15 pm	crying and not sleeping The stupid thing about crying yourself to sleep is when all you want is to sleep, you start thinking about things that make you cry and then the crying makes it so you can't sleep. And that blows. I miss chris. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
1:39 pm	buena vida! Hell yeah, today has been a good day so far...! Yesterday I bought my ticket from Ireland to Spain (it was way more expensive than I thought, but oh well) so now thats taken care of! And today I got back the big paper I wrote the day before it was due and got 74/75 on it, and she extended the due date on it! And last night my Spanish professor approved my paper topic and said it was an "excelente tema" and Fabian just called me on the PHONE and said he is 80% sure he will be able to meet up with me in Spain, so that would rock to be able to see him again! And, after I finish writing my papers, I'm gonna go to Mammoth finally and Chris will be there!!! And then I'm gonna come back, take my finals, and then go on the houseboat trip! And then I'm gonna come back then go to Ireland and Spain! And then it's waterski season and no school! (just working) And I have a kickass boyfriend! woooohooooo! Current Mood: good (Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
10:22 pm	Valentines Day It stinks being alone on V-day, but I wouldn't trade it for anything right now, my boyfriend kicks ass and I miss him alot!! I just wish I could express all of this physically right now...!! Current Mood: thankful (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 1st, 2006
6:17 pm	love poems en espanol The weird thing about Spanish is once you get pretty decent at it, a lot of times you can generally understand something, but have a really hard time exactly translating it back to someone. I have this problem alot when the Mexicans at my work come speak to me in Spanish while Kathy stands by me and immediately asks "what did he just say" right after. I pretty much always know what the dudes are talking about, but when Kathy wants to know exactly what he said, I have a hard time relaying the info exactly the right way. Anyway, I guess this happens alot when I read in Spanish too. This poem is a pretty badass love poem, but I really couldn't translate it exactly...if I could find the English version, it would probably make more sense, but also not really do justice to the poem. All I know is this is a pretty sweet love poem and I couldn't tell you exactly what it means, but I like it... Para vivir no quiero islas, palacios, torres. Que alegria mas alta: vivir en los pronombres! Quitate ya los trajes, las senas, los retratos; yo no te quiero asi, disfrazada de otra, hija siempre de algo. Te quiero pura, libre, irreductible: tu. Se que cuando te llame entre todas las gentes del mundo, solo tu seras tu. Y cuando me preguntes quien es el que te llama, el que te quiere suya, enterrare los nombres, los rotulos, la historia. Ire rompiendo todo lo que encima me echaron desde antes de nacer Y vuelto ya al anonimo eterno del desnudo, de la piedra, del mundo, te dire: "Yo te quiero, soy yo." -Pedro Salinas Current Mood: good (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
8:58 pm	I should be reading, but instead I'm reading my quotes book "If you wait until you're really sure, you'll never take off the training wheels." - Cynthia Copeland Lewis, author "A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses." - Unknown "If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you." -Winnie the Pooh "But I did love you then, only I didn't realize it because it was strong, and I still do love you, even though I know I've probably blown my chance." - Empire Records "I have resolved that if you are afriad of love your heart will break anyway. Only in not half so nice a fashion as when you let somebody love you." -Ann Rinaldi "Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back! Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours." -unknown (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 15th, 2006
9:58 pm	holy SHIT i have a raaaaaaaaaging bladder infection right now, and i am f.u.c.k.i.n.g miserable, bleh mke it go away nooooooooooow :( Current Mood: sick (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 15th, 2005
4:21 am	Well this blows It's 4:21 am right now, and I'm totally awake and totally tired. I went to bed at about 12:00 feeling fine, and now I just woke up with a gnarly sore throat. I never get sick, ever, let alone sick (or sore throaty) enough to not be able to sleep. I've got cough drops, so they are helping my throat, but god damn this is not fun. Kathy the other day at work offered an "Airborne" to me, and at first I said no b/c "I never get sick" but then I was sneezing so I said "Ok, I'll have one" but apparently that didn't help against this stupd sore throat. I feel totally fine besides it, and the soreness is only on the right side, just one lymph node is getting worked right now I guess. I sure as hell hope it's not strep, I guess it could be but that would suck bad. Antiobiotics are no fun and they mess with birth control which is no fun, and I definitely would like to be able to work this week...and SLEEP! Katy is sleeping on the couch so I guess I should stay awake and play on the internet to curb this sore throat induced insomnia. BLAH! Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 14th, 2005
1:30 pm	Christmas songs are making me sad right now Current Mood: irritated Current Music: fucking xmas songs (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 20th, 2005
3:23 pm	For the record, I have the sweetest, hottest, coolest, sexiest and most awesome boyfriend EVER! :) Current Mood: grateful (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 27th, 2005
9:52 am	weddings, random This morning my good friend from high school, Liv, IM'd me... curropira: ashley cooley waterbug607: hey liv curropira: you were in my dream last night waterbug607: wow curropira: you were getting married curropira: and the guy was HOT waterbug607: haha!! waterbug607: YES curropira: he was really rich too waterbug607: wow fuck yes curropira: just thought you should know waterbug607: that is amazing waterbug607: do you remember what the guy looked like? curropira: kind of curropira: he was in a business suit waterbug607: haha curropira: and his hair was done nicely, i remember he snowboarded waterbug607: shit yea curropira: and your ring was fucking huge, big ass rock waterbug607: omg! this is so exciting waterbug607: haha waterbug607: was it a sweet wedding? curropira: i woke up before the wedding but your dress was from vera wang waterbug607: haha curropira: hiro was there waterbug607: hel lyeah curropira: and marissa, charisse and a bunch of people from santa barbara that i dont know waterbug607: that is freaking sweet waterbug607: do you know where it was? curropira: no, but it was down south waterbug607: what color hair did my dude have? curropira: it was blond but a darker blond, like not bleach blond interesting... Current Mood: thoughtful (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
2:53 pm	I think they invented Jeopardy so guys could impress the hell outta their girlfriends every night at 7:30. Good job NBC. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
7:12 pm	Goodbye NUB Today they took out my back nub :( It was such a cute lil guy, but he definitely had to go, he was getting too big, and I didn't want a fatty scar. So I went to the doctors office at 11 am in A TOWN and my mom met me there. The doc squirted a bunch of numbing crap in my back and then I got numb, haha. I've never been numbed for anything so it was a first, but felt pretty cool. He was slicing me open and cauterizing me and all that good stuff, and I was just hangin out not feeling a thing, it was pretty badass. And then when it was finished, they put my nub in a jar and I got to say goodbye to it before they rolled him away. Then I went to Target and got a bunch of cool crap cuz I felt totally fine. I guess the numbing stuff was still kicking ass. I felt perfectly fine for like 5 hours...apparently thats how long the numbing stuff works for...because while I was sitting in class, it started to wear off and I could definitely notice it, and then it started hurting a lot! Since the doc didn't give me any cool painkillers, I came home and took an Advil, and then decided to drink a fatty glass of cheap ass wine. Nobody was around to drink with me, so I drank allllllllll byyyyyyy myyyyyyyyseeeeelllllllfffffff, but it wasn't that bad b/c my nub felt SO much better after the wine, and my roomates came home and I got to chat with them for a long time. So here I am, roomates gone again, 30 mins til the waterski meeting - first of the year, pretty drunk, about to drink another glass of wine, and then head to the meeting with more wine for the meeting. Yeah, I'll probably be wasted tonight, but at least my lack of nub will feel good!! Hope I feel this good tomorrow, probably wont. Current Mood: drunk and feelin much betta (Comment on this)
Friday, September 16th, 2005
9:32 am	HOGS Heck yeah, I just went on my first "long" Harley ride! I went with Dad and Rick and we left Monday afternoon. Monday we rode out into the country out of A town, then to Hollister, and then across the valley toward Grammies house. Right out of Hollister I was riding at like 40 mph and a freaking bird flew up and whapped into my chest! Kinda scary but kinda funny too! I looked back and gave Rick a thumbs up and he was cracking up! Definitely smoked the hell outta that birdie! We had to ride a litle bit in the dark but it wasn't that bad at all and we got to Grammies by like 8 pm and hung out and then ate dinner. After dinner my dad rallied my grammie to go to the bar across the street for "one" drink. Yeah right. So I walked over there with them and got a gin and tonic b/c I thought I would only be drinking one and passing out early. When Dad asked me if I wanted a second drink I said "no" but the drunkass local bartender wasn't having it and put one in front of me anyway. Then there was a drunkass belligerent indian sitting next to me and grammie and he wanted to buy us a drink. So he did, and then I was at 3. And then after that I kept going b/c I was already drunk. It was pretty fun, I think I ended up having 5 gin and tonics (definitely think the bartender was putting close to 2 shots in them) and ended up being wwwwwwwwwaaaaaaasssssssssstttttttteeeeeeeeedddddddddd. We walked home and pretty much thats when I blacked out. They told me I got on the computer - aim express - and talked to Chris...definitely don't remember that and not even sure how I was even able to use a freaking computer! Then I guess I needed to pee, so I went into Grammies bathroom, sat on the toilet, and then put my head on my knees and passed out!! Haha - they took a funny picture of me, and then I guess I woke up, and even hung out with them for a while, and then PTFO'd. Next day I was definitely hanging over...not too bad, but for sure a hangover, so grammie made bomb breakfast, I took excedrin migraine, and I was good enough to go by like 11 am. That day we rode through Yosemite, to the backside and it kicked us out onto the 395. We had crappy dinner in some town called Lee Vining, and then rode down the 395 to Bishop. In Bishop I mobbed the hot tub with my Dad in my undies pretty much, and then Dad and Rick went to the Indian casino and both won over $100 each! In the morning we got beef jerky at the good jerky place, then had breakfast at Schats bakery, and then took off down 395 again. We rode that for like 2 hours, and then turned off somewhere to a place called 'Kennedy Meadows," that part of the ride was really pretty also, and pretty fun curvy roads. But every single restaurant we passed was closed! So, we didn't eat "lunch" until 5 pm in Kernville, and still had over 2 hours to go. We were all really tired but charged it to Lost Hills, got ready for night riding, and then rode down 46 in the dark, which was kinda scary but not that bad. We got home at 10pm, and I was beat! My ass and my clutch fingers were both sore, but it was all super fun and deiinitely worth it. Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)